Angela

I wonder, why I bother anymore.
Out of my original core group of friends, only Dan is going to bother coming to my birthday.  The only person from duncan/shawnigan/vic that has EVER visited me out here is Robyn.   It's not like I live in Saskatchewan.  it's not that had to hop on a god-damned bus and come see me.  or hey, even easier, DRIVE.
I even made my birthday on a friday so that none of you would have school.   That means that friday, I'll wake up at 3am, go to work from 4-12, then go to school from 1 to 6, party with you guys, then be at work again for 4am the next morning.
If I would have known so many of you would fucking cop out, I would have planned it for a thurs or something.
From here on in, I will not contact any of you.  (except Jon and Dan)
You know my phone number.
you can call me.

Ok, so I totally forgot that livejournal actually existed.   I haven't posted in just under 1 year, so I figured I'd write a little bit more frequently.
I'm pretty happy with my life as it stands right now.  I'm taking a Practical Nursing program at Sprott Shaw starting in like.. 3 days.  I'm also going to go see Alkaline Trio, Thrice and Rise Against in 2 days, so Im pretty effing excited.   I'm not entirely sure what I'm going to be doing for my birthday.. I just know that I don't want it to be a complete flop.  I can't really go anywhere, because I work at 4am the next day,.. but I still want to go out and possibly drink myself silly .

Things with Dylan are going pretty good,  we've been together for just over a year and a half.  Thats a long time to be committed to one person, and every once in a while I find myself thinking about other people, but then I just have to remember all the amazing things about dylan and all the great adventures we've had and it all returns to normal.  Nick's been kinda on my mind a lot though.. I just plain miss him.  Like crazy.    I just wish I could split myself into 2 people, and spontaniously go down to seattle and start a new life, while staying here at the same time.
Oh well, I'm sure life will run it's course and I'll be happy with ther outcome.

I've also been obsessed with watching the office lately.  I just like.. LOVE Jim and Pam together (Im on season 4).  It's like im just living vicariously through the tv. 
Anyyways, I gotta jet, I have to pack for vancouver this weekend, I get to see moe!!!  yay!!
(Oh, also, I've developed a giant crush on Dylan's co-worker and friend Tanis.  She's just so friendly and beutiful and when I see her  just get giant butterflie and blush a lot..  Maybe I can hook up with her?  I'm not sure if she goes both ways though...)

 Alrighty, sooooo I havent posted in a while.. I dont think anyone reads this anymore.. but meh.  I am at work and today is a pissy day.  I dunno why but I just seem to be so grumpy.. i wish I wasnt but meh, ohh welll.
Tonight im going drinking with some work friends, which should eb cool, considering the girl's hosue we're going to is gonna be like..  uber close to where I live so I can just go home if I want.
buttt i have to goooo
byeeeaas

I swear my roomate hates me.  She waits until I get home from work to have a shower.
and it's like... right after I walk in the door too.
BLAH.
I have to pee and grab tampons
MRRRRR

GRAHHHHHHHHHHH
I HATE SHAREING A FUCKING HOUSE
WITH PEOPLE I DON'T FUCKING KNOW

Sup life? 

things are going well.  I got an e-mail about the Next! piercing course.. and I'm really excited about it.  For once I actually want to do more than just pass.  I want to ACE this course. 

Isn't the whole point of quitting your job is so that you don't have to work anymore
#@$&^

I hate computers.

I can't wait to move.

My head is so full of things to say, but I don't even know where to start.  In less than a week, I will be moving out.  It's an exciting thought, but also slightly unnerving.  I am going to have to start all over again.  How do you make friends in a new city? I am going to be very alone, I think.  Even today, in good old duncan I feel alone.  I feel restless, but don't know what to do.  Around my friends, I feel like I don't fit.  I just, feel like I'm suspended.  Suspended between old friends that I don't really know, a boyfriend who lives two hours away and a life that I want but don't know how to get.  I want to do so many things, but I don't even know where to start.  I wish I had more money.  I hope I can find a fufulling job in Nanaimo.  \

I just feel so weird being me.  I feel so disconented.  I feel so unhappy all the time.  My family has noticed that lately I've been really bitchy.  An old lacrosse friend said I looked unhappy during the whole tournement.  I don't want to seem unhappy.  I want to be full of energy and excitement, but I don't know how anymoer.  The only person I can really relax around anymore lives two hours away. What have I done?

Blahh..
So, I no longer work at Tim Ho's.
All I wanted to do tonight was celebrate that fact, but I got totally ditched by graham.
And by the time he actually ditched me it was too late to do anything else.
So I drove around Duncan.
Bought a magazine.
Tried to find gifts, but failed.
Oh well, there's always tomorrow morning.

I wish I could contact the lot of you easier.
aka: I wish you were all online more.



Oh, my parents are finally supporting me.  They're going to pay half the course cost and half the hotel fare for the piercing course in Vancouver. 

I am so dumb.  D-U-M-B.  fuck fuck shit shit what is wrong with me?  (haha, try singing that as a litte song, hahaha)  I fucking FAIL.  I haven't even had my licence a year, and now, it's probably going to be suspended.  THIS SUCKS.    merrrrr....